Friday, March 17, 2006

who would have thought a simple night out like that would bring all feelings back again? but then i should have expected it. i know i got over him quite a while back but like i said then there's still a little feeling buried somewhere deep within me. love really is blind. i see his many flaws yet i'm still pretty much in love with his good points. and today i got irritated again as usual when he called out to lixin to sit down when he found some space so that we could watch the concert at esplanade. like it's always her first.of course during dinner when i got to the table, i didn't know he was there yet (the guys all look pretty much the same without hair!) then he said hi to me and i said a really simple hi back and that's it. i know it doesn't mean anything cos he's this friendly to everybody. somehow it seemed that our bantering today was much milder than usual. and i felt that he somehow tried to restrain himself on purpose. SIGH...stupid feeling's back again. darn i hope i get to meet a better guy soon then i can forget about ben. and it so doesn't help that he actually looks much better now aesthetic face value wise. can't say that he has improved much physical body wise cos he's still pretty thin as usual but his face somehow looks different maybe cos of the hair and he got braces for the upper set of teeth and surprisingly he looks very good and quite cute with them! oh no!!! but actually i can be 99.9% sure that he doesn't like me. the other 0.1% stems from the fact that i refuse to accept it. what am i gonna do?!?!

:: Room on the 3rd Floor :: posted at 11:21 PM